I came to Portland to get a fresh start. I don't really know how that's working for me. I have no idea what I am supposed to be doing anymore. I am so not where I thought I would be. Divorcing (again) and I have turned into something I don't even recognize anymore. I mostly sit in my room watching anime or reading webcomics. I don't go out and do anything because I really just have no idea where to even start or what to do. I mean yeah, I have been to the occasional coffee shop. I got a membership at a Pilates Club. I even go a few times a week.
I still feel stuck. I have been looking online about teaching English in other countries. I was thinking about getting my TEFL certificate and my passport. How awesome would that be to just go to another country and teach. Of course most places want you to have a degree, which I don't. There are a few places I could go. I have also been thinking about learning a foreign language. Honestly I ideally think about doing or trying a lot of things. I just don't seem to be able to get the extra push to actually do them.
It's not that I don't have time. I think I am missing my drive. So this is me sitting in my room, typing on my laptop and not exploring Portland. I think I should be disappointed in myself but I don't have the energy for it. I am probably depressed. I don't take anything for it, and I will probably continue to not take anything for it because I just don't want to. I don't really want to do anything a lot of the time. I just don't know where to start. Maybe I will figure it out soon.
Hugs,
Me
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